Her Secret Corner… Spanking Erotica

It’s difficult being single and harboring a fetish some would be shocked at.

I was out in the field last week and an attractive man approached my table.  He made small talk, and I’m old enough to read the signs– there was interest there.

This man was handsome, well dressed, around the right age.    Add in polite, nicely spoken, and quick-witted.

So what did I do?

Uh…  I left the area as soon as I could and avoided him until he was gone!

I know, silly, silly me!   And this is not the first time I’ve behaved this way.

I’ve blogged on numerous occasions about wanting to find a partner.

But its important to me, at this point in my life, to find a like-minded partner.  A vanilla man just won’t do.

So what’s a girl to do?!

I don’t know…  But I do wish I could convince myself to stop running away!

Shyness really is part of the problem.   The desire for spanking in a relationship is certainly part of the problem– I don’t want to deal with coming out to someone who might be shocked at my admission.

But there are other, deeper issues at play.

Several times I’ve alluded to having some health issues.   Many of you have written to me asking what is wrong.

I don’t mind sharing; I just don’t want to make it a focal point.

I have MS.

Scary at times?   Certainly.

Frustrating?   Most definitely.

But it’s not as scary as it would have been had I been diagnosed ten or twenty years ago.   There is much hope on the horizon today.

Still, I had avoided dating for sometime, because I was ambivalent about getting involved with someone, knowing the future could be uncertain.

While in Italy last spring, the friend I traveled with gave me quite the talking to one night.

“You don’t value yourself enough.”

“The future is uncertain for all of us– there are no guarantees.”

“You’re making excuses because you’re afraid– not all men are alike.”

Now, these statements coming from a man were rather eye-opening.

Another friend told me I’m going about things all wrong.   I need to change my mindset.   “Find a guy with the ‘White Knight’ syndrome…   Some men just want to be that.   Makes ‘em feel big and strong…”

Hmmm…

Somehow I don’t think I could handle the “White Knight” mentality, but I will concede my other friend had some valid points.

I haven’t always valued myself enough and I have been making excuses.   And yes, the future is uncertain for all of us.   There are no guarantees.

So, where is Mr. Right?   Where to look for him?

Most of us would agree the internet has opened up a whole new world.   But vanilla dating sites like Match or E-Harmony are not likely to bring the match we seek.

There are some dating sites dedicated to the spanking world, but the selection seems to be rather slim.   And frankly, most of the men who post profiles seem to be looking for casual encounters.

I have used Craig’s List in the past– and before I hear a collective “Ew!– let me just say, I’ve met a few nice men.   Even thought one or two might develop into something.

It’s always disappointing when you reach the conclusion that things are not going to move forward.   And it makes it that much harder to put yourself out there again.

Attraction between two people is an elusive thing to find, in the best of circumstances.   That spark seems to ignite so infrequently in one lifetime.   Add into the mix a few oddities…

Sigh.

I think the spanking community should develop some sort of symbol we could all wear, in order to recognize one another.

Or come up with a secret handshake…

Either could make dating life so much easier!