Am I Due A Spanking?

“Are you due a spanking?”

Not an easy question to honestly answer.

What is it, exactly, about spanking that is such a trigger point for me, and so many others like me?

Do I feel I’ve earned a spanking? Or that I deserve to be punished?

For the most part, I’d say, “Not really.”

I live a pretty clean life.

I watch my speed when driving. My livelihood depends on my car, and I drive long distances. Just makes sense to be careful.

I rarely swear– to me, it’s not an attractive thing for a woman to do.

I try not to lie, save the occasional “white” lie designed to spare someone’s feelings.

Don’t steal… Generally not confrontational or bitchy… Don’t smoke or do drugs… PMS isn’t much of an issue… Pay my bills on time… Don’t sleep around…

What, then?

Well…

I do tend to procrastinate. Run late from time to time. Don’t always eat the way I know I should. (And I work in the health food industry!)

Focus can be an issue. I change my schedule way too much, and end up stressing out at the end of the month…

Do I want someone to discipline me for these things?

I’m not sure how comfortable I am with that concept, but I do want the cleansing, cathartic release that only a good spanking can provide.

And after a lifetime of always having to be in control, I’m craving the surrender of giving up control.